SO I'm a little frazzled to say the least from yesterday. Dr W wanted to put London back in hospital again. I am just so frustrated with this all. Why is it that his solution for everything is to put her back in hospital. He said to me yesterday, "I'm a little concerned that you don;t see this issue like I do". Really!!!!!!!!! I'm the mother. She's my daughter. She is absolutely beautiful and doing EVERYTHING that the others did. She is his patient and so he sees her from a medical view. Of course I'm not going to see it like he does. I don't think that he likes me much anyways. He pretty much asked if I wanted a new doctor. I don't want a new doctor. I think that he is a great doctor, I want my families life back. I don't want to feel like fingers are being pointed at me as the route cause of all of this. I am NOT a neglectful parent. I have 4 other beautiful healthy children. I am a very capable mother who loves her children very much. I want London to grow up to be healthy and strong. I want her to find an amazing young man and get married in the temple of her choice. I want us to take all of the kids to Disneyland someday and to laugh and be like every other family on this planet. I DO"T want to have her in hospital again and have the others worry about her. I don't want to have to go up to the Children Hospital every week for weight checks. I don't want life to revolve around her weight. I want it to revolve around how amazing and special she is, around her smile that can light up a room and her laid back, content, loving giant spirit that fills her tiny little body.

I am hoping and praying that this week brings good news. I am up at the hospital again next Tuesday. I will be praying hard this week.